So...after my traumatic first day of seeing boyboy cry at the babysitter, I decided I will not stay there anymore.
My babysitter asked me on the 2nd day why don't I stay there and I told her its easier on mummy to just drop and go...and then keep busy the whole day until 5.30 pm when I go pick him up!
Hahaha....so you can imagine the amount of washing, ironing and cleaning I did on the 2nd day. And in the afternoon drove over to my friend's place and spent the whole afternoon there! Came back, cooked and cleaned and then it was already 5.30!!
I think it will be easier when I get back to work!
BUT .... my report from the helpers there was that he didn't cry much. He only made noise when he was hungry. So, I am quite sure he is well taken care. Learning wise...maybe I can put that on hold till the evening!
Then lo and behold, today (the 3rd day), I found out they are starting a kindy upstairs. And my babysitter told me that when the kids are about 18 months, they may send the kids upstairs for an hour or two to learn!!!
Thank God. He knows the fears in our hearts and quells them quickly!
So, anyway.....I think I have learnt to let go!
Spend Day 3 with hubby at the shopping malls and walked around until our feet ached (and not our arms)!
Boyboy doesn't seem to mind being at the babysitters. In fact he has loads to tell us when he gets back...he doesn't sleep for the next 2 hours and demands our face to be in his face while he coos and gaas and shouts! And I don't know why but since he has been to the babysitter, he wakes up at 4.30 am for his milk and talks to me for quite a while! It has been weeks since he woke up for night feeds and I thought I was over that!
But I don't mind....I miss looking at him! After a while I start wishing him to sleep though....
Thank You to all my friends for their kind words of reassuarance! It was good to talk about it!Glad to know I am not the only 'sensitive' one....hehe...
Ahhh.....in time all things will be dealt with....